Please call me J E N I ♣ B A N E N I from now on. :)

Stupid tooth! Bakit ngayon pa na walang dentist????!!!

- Ham&cheese inorder ko sayo kasi lam ko ayaw mo ng egg.

- Orange juice yung drink mo ha, kasi lam ko yan lagi inoorder mo sa KFC e.

(@ Greenhills Promenade)
Promenade ka ba?
Yup.
(Then he appears behind me after a while)
How'd you know I was here?
E books kasi, lam ko dito ka pupunta.

AND!!! He gave me Gregory Maguire's Son of a Witch and A Lion Among Men. I love it!!! Haha. The books are hard to find so I really appreciate the effort. I was supposed to go back to Greenhills' Fully Booked since that's where I saw the books.

Lam mo ba ung isa?
Yup, ung Lion Among Men? Yun yung kasunod ng Son of a Witch.
I know. I did my research.

I love how he remembers these little things. :)

The Weakness In Me
(Joan Armatrading)

I'm not the sort of person who falls in and quickly out of love
But to you I gave my affection right from the start
I have a lover who loves me, how could I break such a heart
Yet still you get my attention

Why do you come here when you know I've got troubles enough
Why do you call me when you know I can't answer the phone
Make me lie and I don't want to
And make someone else some kind of unknowing fool
You make me stay when I should not
Are you so strong or is all the weakness in me
Why do you come here and pretend to be just passing by
But I mean to see you
And I mean to hold you, tightly

Feeling guilty, worried, waking from tormented sleep
This old love has me bound but the new love cuts deep
If I choose now, I'll lose out, one of you has to fall
And I need you, and you

Why do you come here when you know I've got troubles enough
Why do you call me when you know I can't answer the phone
Make me lie and I don't want to
And make someone else some kind of unknowing fool
You make me stay when I should not
Are you so strong or is all the weakness in me
Why do you come here and pretend to be just passing by
But I mean to see you
And I mean to hold you, tightly

i feel nothing
when you hold my hand.
i stop breathing,
i stop feeling--
anything else.
(10.28.08)


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this is the best i can do right now. it's been a while since i wrote something, so be nice!!! haha. CONSTRUCTIVE criticisms allowed. ^^

princerob! I know it's another 6hrs for you, but what the heck, it's the 27th here. Haha. I miss you so much! I wish you were here... Ohwell, I'll see you when I see you. Hope you're having a blast :)

1. When there's this little voice inside you that tells you something isn't right.

2. When you see the disaspproving looks of your real friends, even if they keep quiet about it.

3. When it's a negative externality to society.

4. When you know you're hurting someone.

5. When you try to justify your actions to your conscience and to your closest friends.

6. When you know that if your mom/dad/grandfather/sister knew about this, they'll be sad.

7. When you're hurting yourself.

8. When you become the unhappy person that you hate.






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I needed this.

I don't even understand myself anymore. All I know is, I don't need any more problems right now. I've got enough to last me a lifetime. Haha. Just kidding. I don't wanna hurt you, but I wanna be alone. Maybe it's temporary. Or maybe not. I'd have to figure that out first. I don't even know how I feel as of the moment. It's a cliche, but it's true--it's not you, it's ALL me.